Listen to Link. That is a very nice post. There is some saying like:
Nothing is acheived from hiding from your fears. Something like that. However, even if you have had problems with the admins, is that really a reason to leave? Basically, look at it this way, let's say that they coded the entire site, then left it to us. What would happen? When the listserver went down, where would you go? How would swearing be controlled? How would spam be stopped? I DON'T WANT TO TURN THIS INTO HELLRAISER'S POST! So, I won't continue. Look, I'm just basically saying, that no matter what, they probably aren't going to ban you, unless you have done something incredibly serious. The admins are pretty cool and nice, just give them another chance.