Thanks Moonblaze for bringing some sensibility here. The real issue with your art Shade is that mouse art is really just holding you back. Eventually, you'll have to shell out for a scanner or a tablet. I'd also agree with Moonblaze on the basis that you should start with just a number 2 pencil, paper, and a scanner. That'll help you get started at least. Programs are fun, tablets are convenient, but it'll just be easier this way.

I'd edit my post now that I'm more calm and collected, but at the same time, I think it's necessary that you see that you need to handle criticism a bit more maturely. However, I will apologize for the tone I used.