I know I might do wrong to comment on this one, but I don't agree with you. I wonder what those defensive measures were, as 80% of the points the enemy scored were coused because I died and you were not r. Of course I failed to be r a few times too, but you just can't say that you took care of the defensive stuff more than I did, because it is too obvious that you didn't. Just look at the chatlogs.
Anyways we all have our bad days and it's not a competition of one player so you shouldn't feel worried to find an excuse how you were as useful as I was. It's a teamgame and our team lost. No need to pick on any individuals.