Wow, I think I actually know what you mean by the atmosphere of the game. I kinda miss it, it's not the same anymore. There was a kind of joy I derived from it that you really couldn't quite name. Maybe it will come back someday.

Don't say that! Don't even think it! You still have your life ahead of you, you're stuck in a slump is all. Time and perhaps a bit of hard work will fix that.

(No links to the nastiest depths of the internet or instructions on how to kill yourself, dummy. ~Stijn)