hey man, killing yourself ain't no joke. if this is a joke, it's not funny. if it isn't, well it's still not funny, be it an unusual way to get out of the community or a genuine suicide.
life may suck, but it's your job to do something about it... if you truly don't have a purpose in life how can you rest in peace knowing that you lived a life without purpose?

believe me, you will regret this decision. you could've at least lived a life and gave it your best shot instead of just giving up. even if you think yourself lost, couldn't you help other people?

and if this is a joke, you will still regret this decision. you have lost a great deal of the board's respect, if there was any left at all (not me personally, because I understand the position you are in). people who joke about this kind of stuff have issues. don't try to shame yourself into legacy, because you won't go anywhere except worse off than you were before. hopefully you will learn something about yourself from this and move on from here motivated and a little smarter.