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i am sproedel. and i'm wondering, why there are so many sticky topics in the misc. back in the olden days i discovered jazz jackrabbit I through a friend of my brother. it was gorgeous. i played it very often.

i like listening to much music. daft punk is my absolute favourite band, but i mostly enjoy indie. i recently fell in love with the new maccabees record. and i fell in love with my girlfriend. i don't like religion. i think people who believe in religion are toolazy to think for themselves. i sometimes love to eat. because food is good. i love to ride my bike. it's an old bike. it looks really good.
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VashTheStampede aka Paul aka Izac Stokes from Nerdz
20/M/MN
Gamer, Guitarist, Actor, Grunt Worker, WoW Addict
graduated Anoka High School, MN
2 years at Anoka Ramsey
CCNA Certified

I own:
(Main PC)
AMD Athlon 64 3500+
ATI Radeon 9800Pro All-in-Wonder
2Gigs DDR
2 300GB SATA HDD
Windows Vista Business
Many Many games, too many to name.

(Alt. PC)
AMD Athlon XP 2000+
1Gig of DDR
ATI Radeon 9550
20GB main OS Drive
250GB file drive (dynamic)
Windows Server 2003
my server for everything

(Wii)
Zelda: Twilight Princess
Cooking Mama
Rayman Raving Rabids
Super Paper Mario
Marvel Ultimate Alliance
WarioWare Smooth Moves

('91 Acura Integra GS)
White
Provides transportation
New Suspension

(Furniture)
enough to furnish a house.

Appearance:
6'1", medium build, 155lbs.
Brown long hair, chamelion eyes, pale.
Has Dimebag Beard.
3 tattoos, one a ninendo controller, watch on left arm at all times.
Wears a combination of brown, dark green, black, red, white and grey clothing.

Enjoys:
Vitamin Water, Caffene, Green Tea.

Else:
loves metal, singing in an 80's voice to scare people, horror flicks, but not gore flicks, loves his fiancee to death, I also live in my parents basement. Good job + no bills = extra cash.

Favorite games ever:
FFVII, WoW, Any Mario Game

Sports, Music and Politics:
Skateboarding. Metal, Rock, Classic Rock, Classical, Jazz, Jpop, Techno, Thrash, Grunge, Punk. politics ain't my bag.
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I'm Shorty I started playing JJ2 when I was 14.

Now, I am 21 years old. Also, I'm a girl, which almost everyone gets wrong.

I go Mississippi State University where I am entering my senior year majoring in Biological Engineering with an environmental emphasis and a math minor.

Umm, I'm approximately 5'2" (1.57 meters) and about 100 lbs (45 kg). I'm called Shorty cause well...I'm little, as everyone tells me.

I used to be on here a lot more, but not so much now.

I drive a 2004 Toyota Matrix...it's white with a red pin stripe. <3

This a preview but it's enough
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I don't see why I'm posting this, since most of you know me. But maybe you'll learn something new ;D

My name is Adam Sterling, age 18. I live in New Mexico, and I'm a recent high school graduate. I plan to go onto the University of New Mexico and get two majors in Theatre and Music Theory/Composition. I aspire to be the lead singer in a successful band, to which I'm already on the way. By that I mean I'm in a band, thusfar un-named, that consists of 3 of my good buddies.

Baring that, I'm a multi-talented person who never does anything, so I can't back stuff up except with my potential. But I have dabbled in drawing and writing, and once considered a professional career as a fiction novelist. I spend my days writing songs now mostly.

Hopefully to put on a cd ;(

I'm a #jj2 regular, along with most of the old players who don't play. Go there, chat, but don't expect anything but ZANY SURPRISES!!!

As far as videos games, I'm growing out of them. The only ones I play now are Warcraft 3 and Heroes of Might and Magic, but mostly because I just play them with Risp and Radium.

Politically I'm a moderate. Socially libertarian and economically conservative, but not very extreme in either way.

Religiously so non-commited that I'm not even atheist. I just don't think about it.

My turn-offs include bad breath and liberals.
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Hi,
I'm 'Blobby', 14 years. I Live in England

Joined this community quite a few years back; had this game ever since it's release. I think it was my first game: my second game was Doom.

Hobbies: Write, draw, hang out with friends, cycle, play computer games! Read a bit aswell.

Books: Halo : Ghosts of Onyx, Star Wars : New Jedi Order, Quake, Alex Rider,

Movies: Star Wars, Indiana Jones, Resident Evil, Shaun of the Dead, Casino Royale etc

Games:
Doom
Jazz 2
Half-Life Series
Halo
Prince of Persia
Splinter Cell
Rainbow Six
Jak and Daxter
etc

Music: Everything! Mostly rock/heavy metal though, although sometimes venture into Rap, Pop, J-Pop, whatever. Even classical, especially game music!!

My PC is pretty awesome, with a 6600 GT graphics card Before that I had a TINY(closed down now) PC, with some ATI Radeon graphics card.
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introducing myself would imply that i'm new here. so it's more like re-introducing myself?

ah.. i'll give a more proper introduction later but basically i am an "old dude" from the days of folks such as CaptainSpam, Dino, and Gizmo (DON'T BE OFFEND IF I DIDN'T INCLUDE YOUR NAME IN THAT LIST YOU GUIIIIIISE) Of course, my username wasn't Mister Happy back than. Oh lawd.
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[QUOTE=Mister Happy;408156]Of course, my username wasn't Mister Happy back than./QUOTE]

It was this username. Geez, how could I freakin' forget that I was "purplesheep"? D:
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Of course, my username wasn't Mister Happy back than.
It was this username. Geez, how could I freakin' forget that I was "purplesheep"? D:
OH MY GOOD GOD
can it be.
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OH MY GOOD GOD
can it be.
YES IT'S YOUR OLD LOVER OPRAH WINFREY!
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YES IT'S YOUR OLD LOVER OPRAH WINFREY!
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NO (-)ING WAY
COME BURY YOUR HEAD IN MY BOSOM, LOVE
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COME BURY YOUR HEAD IN MY BOSOM, LOVE
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Get a room, you two!
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n_n~ mm~ mmm~
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Get a room, you two!
NO U.
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Hello. I'm a furry.
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I just thought I should give a warning.
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Hay Guyz.
I'm Ana (AKA Dominica), I come with peace, lol.
I like aliens and some weird things. That's all.
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Of course, my username wasn't Mister Happy back than./QUOTE]

It was this username. Geez, how could I freakin' forget that I was "purplesheep"? D:
OMG YOU. =O
<3

Anyway ME. =O I got JJ2 for Christmas 1998, finished Single Player on Co-Op mode with my Dad on January 2nd, and then started learning JCS. I stumbled upon Jazz2City while looking for tutorials on buttstomp scenery. :B At that point, my only internet access was one computer at my mom's workplace (the local newspaper). I'd download stuff from J2C onto floppy disks to take home, and read the War Tavern archive religiously. Once I finished the latter, I ventured into the JMMB.
That was my first Internet presence, and I was mostly active through 2002, after which I sort of dropped out and did other stuff. Now I want to make tilesets and levels again. x3

Name: Talec LP (Talec/Talec Arashi elsewhere)
(My clantag is an ancient relic and whenever I remove it, people ask me why it's gone. So it stays. )
Age: 21 (I was 12 when I first got JJ2.)
Gender: guess ;D
Location: Pennsylvania, USA
Public school K-3, homeschooled 4-highschool. No plans for college.
Assorted experience petsitting cats, dogs, fish and plants ;D
3 months (so far) at Campbell Ironworks, a metalshop. C:

Electronics I own (in order of age):
two Atari 1600s, both broken. ;-;
an Atari 5200
an NES, with a bunch of classics (LoZ1-2, Super Mario Bros, Paperboy, Duck Hunt [with grey Zapper!], etc)
a P4 named Sakkun, with an awesome scanner.
two Playstations, with a bunch of games I've never played (inherited with the PSX), and MegaMan Legends (1, 2 & the Misadventures of Tron Bonne).
a Gameboy Advance with Pokémon (Gold, Crystal and FireRed), Commander Keen (GBC), Jazz Jackrabbit Advance, MegaMan Battle Network 3 White & 4 Red Sun, and Zoids Legacy.
a cellphone that I never use.
I also intend to someday set up our old Pentium 90 in my room with an LCD monitor, so I can play oldschool games.

Enjoys:
Diet Dr. Pepper, lifesaver candies & skittles, cheap pizza, japanese spaghetti (spaghetti, bacon, onions, ketchup)

Favorite games:
Doom I & II
Jazz Jackrabbit 2 (SHOCKING)
Seiken Densetsu 3
Unreal 1
MegaMan Legends 1 (I haven't finished 2 yet)

Favorite TV series (including cartoons and anime):
Shuffle! (anime)
Babylon 5 (TV sci-fi series)
Digimon (anime, all seasons, although I haven't seen Savers/Data Squad yet)
Zoids (anime, specifically first two seasons, and fifth)
SD Gundam Force ( anime, I run the biggest English fansite c: )
Fantastic Children (anime)
(Fond mentions to Deep Space 9, Yu Yu Hakusho, DragonballZ, Oban Star-Racers, Outlaw Star, Cowboy Bebop, Firefly, Rockman.EXE and Battlestar Galactica 2004)

Else:
Sometimes I go on sprees of almost compulsive archiving. I probably qualify as a furry. I have a whole mess of Highly Unusual Spiritual Beliefs. I have at least 150 robot toys, mostly model kits (Gundams and Zoids). I love music and like all genres, yes, including rap and country. :3 I also love level- and world-design, even if I don't do it very often.
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My names Olof Karlsson, and I'm a male.
I'm 16 years old. I prefers to think of myself as shy but sometimes I realise I aint. I love thinking, and I feel great whenever I look up into the sky at night when it's full of stars.

I'm a gamer. I'm not afraid to talk about games nor gaming. It's just another cultural medium, what makes it any different from music and art? (Except for the interactivity... which is a plus)
I also like drawing. I like reading books, though I can pass long periods where I don't read anything at all (except for the internet), and then fall into a period where I read books until 1 AM at night.

I'm not that confident in my abilities, and I sometimes hate myself for not finishing what I start. I usually get a great idea in my head, but when it's time to make something of it I just can't get anything done.

I'm not very athlete. I'm not fat, no, I'm quite thin actually.
I dislike almost every sport, and I just can't see the point in watching, let's say, a soccer game. I find it boring.

I'm currently at the first year of the gymnasium and I'm doing alright.

I've never been into any serious relationship.

My parents are divorced, and I'm okay with it. My mother lives with another man (not married, though) and he is great. I love my parents.

What I own:

A PC at my dad, I don't remember the exact specs but it's along the lines of:
Intel Pentium 4: 3,00 GHz
ATI Radeon 9800 Pro 128 MB
1 Gig of RAM
150 Gig of harddrive space partitioned into C:\ (30 gig) and D:\ (120 gig).

At my mom:

AMD Athlon XP 2400+ 2,00 GHz
Geforce 2 MX 400
512 MB RAM
150 Gig hardrive partitioned in the same way as at my dad.

A black Gamecube, with a black controller and a 256 block memory card.
Around 18 games I think, they're all at my dad so I can't remember.

A Wii chipped with WiiKey
One full controller (wiiremote+nunchuck)
Brooklyn RGB cable
Zelda: Twilight Princess
Wii Sports
Godfather: Blackhand Edition
Excite Truck (these are all bought games)

A Nintendo DS
Sonic Rush (yes, I bought it)
M3 Simply

A GBA (the first model without internal backlight
A light+magnifying glass adapter which you put ontop of it.
Some kind of stereo adapter which makes the GBA softer to hold. (these things together the GBA looks like a freakin' beast)
Tony Hawk's Pro Skater 2
Sonic Advance
Legend of Zelda: A Link to the Past (+The Four Swords)
Golden Sun
Pokémon Ruby
Castlevania: Double Pack (Aria of Sorrow and Harmony of Dissonance)
Metroid Fusion
Jazz Jackrabbit Advance (I got it at a fleamarket, the box is in a bad shape but the game works perfectly)

The Original Game Boy (color: red)
The Legend of Zelda: Link's Awakening (the best game in the world)
Donkey Kong Country
Some chinese 31 in 1 cartridge that no longer works... I have some great memories with this thing!

I also have a Sony Ericsson K300i.

I also have an old Saturn with Virtua Fighter 2, and a newly bought Megadrive (the first one) with Mega Games 1 and Virtua Racing.

I have alot of friends, and I like everyone of 'em.

I don't really know what else to say.
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Since my last description is heavily dusty and outdated, I decided to update. Huzzah.

I'm NovaStar, real name Emma, 14 years of age, born 29th August 1993 and from Australia. Oh, and I'm a girl, so that'd be nice to remember. My parents are divorced and my dad lives with his girlfriend, not that I care too much about it anyway.

I'm pretty tall at 5'7" (1.71cm) and I weigh about 110lbs (50kg), which often makes me look extremely thin. I've got shoulder-length brown hair, but it usually grows beyond that, and I have hazel eyes, more leaning to green.

I'm a parasitic forum/art bum and mainly hang out on BaltoSource (some obscure website about a dog movie) under the name of Cobalt. Also a drawing and sugar addict, blah blah blah, go to a Catholic all-girls school, so of course I'm Catholic. I muck around with my lovely bunch of misfits and we do things a bunch of spastic crazy misfits would generally do when they're bored off their butts.

Specs-wise, I'm primitive compared to a lot of the people here. But anyways,
Platinum Nintendo DS (first release)
-Muted accidentally by a Pepsi spill :'(
-Nintendogs Labrador
-Pokemon Mysterious Dungeon
-Pokemon Dash
-Pokemon Diamond

Platinum GameBoy Advance
-Pokemon Ruby (currently missing (2 years ))
-Pokemon Emerald (also missing for 2 years)
-Pokemon FireRed
-Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire (complete)
-Super Mario Brothers 4
-Some other Mario game that I can't remember

I also used to have another Ruby game, but that went missing too, and I hope to replace Emerald in a few days. I've probably left out a few, but as you can see I am a Pokemon freak.

PC Games stuff.
-Sims 2 (Original/University/Nightlife/Deluxe)
-Jazz 2 (inactive on it, however)
And heaps more that I rarely play anymore.

Well, my mom's PC is a second-hand Toshiba laptop with Windows XP SP2 on it, and it can't last a minute without being connected to AC power. And I have a Wacom art tablet as well. Yay!

My actual PC that I own and maintain is living with my elder male parental and dates back to 2003, oh the processing horror. However, it does have a nice ATI Radeon 256MB video card, if I remembered the name right.

Oh, and school stuffs. I'm nearing the end of eighth grade in high school, which I don't know the name of in those strange American education standards.

I'm pretty inactive in JJ2 these days, being a bit of a nublet, but I hang out in #jj2 and #craccoclan a lot, more the latter than the former. So that's me.
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I'm Chris, Codenamed Puffie40. I will be 20 at the end of this month (n00b should know )

I live in southeastern B.C., Canada, on a 150 acre farm with my parents and my Brother. We all consider ourselves Lutherens.

I'm 6'4", 250lb male, brown hair, auquamarine eyes, a rather serious but optimistic personality, with a strong eye for detail.

Mechanics is my mainpoint of interest, but I have a side hobby in Lego.

I find it fairly easy to communicate with the older generations about old machinery, and you can often find me at the Red Power (International harvester) forum However, I tend to lurk, only posting to ask questions.

I use a PII 300 for Jazz Jackrabbit, and I am trying to fix up a 1300 Celeron for a internet computer.

Favorite games:

Jazz Jackrabbit 2
Jagged Alliance 2
Duke Nukem 2
Ultima Underworld

Random fact:

My dad collects antique crawlers. He has 17 of them now, one of which he built himself!

I'm not sure how much intrest there would be about my life, but here's a blog about our activities on fixing this farm up:http://farm-puffie40.blogspot.com/
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I'm myself and no-one else. I'm the artist that can't draw with a mouse but tries anyway. I'm blablabla.
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I've probably left out a few, but as you can see I am a Pokemon freak.
Well, considering you lost almost all your Pokémon games, I find it hard to believe.

How do you lose games anyway? Don't you keep the box and the games in some kind of safe place? Like a pouch of something? It's just I find it irritating that some people treat games like they're a soft pillow, throwing them around and such.

Also, I just can't understand why someone would trash the original box you get when you buy a game/console. Keep it somewhere safe!

That's my nerdy two cents.
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Well, considering you lost almost all your Pokémon games, I find it hard to believe.

How do you lose games anyway? Don't you keep the box and the games in some kind of safe place? Like a pouch of something? It's just I find it irritating that some people treat games like they're a soft pillow, throwing them around and such.

Also, I just can't understand why someone would trash the original box you get when you buy a game/console. Keep it somewhere safe!

That's my nerdy two cents.
I just happened to bring it to a friend's house one day two years ago, and of course had to switch game cards and whatever, and somehow managed to lose it. However, I lose things all the time.
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Okay, so here I am.

Maybe you already know my name. I think I told it before. However, that's not really important at the moment. I feel like there's something more I have to... say. Lighten the load. Tell people I don't know who I really am.
So, the thing is, almost all my life I've felt... underpowered. Worse than everybody else. Not good enough at anything.
To be able to fully explain everything I think I have to go back some years. A whole lot of years.

My parents are divorced. Ever since the first day I've got to know about it I hated it. However, I never really told anyone. When I was little and my dad and mom were fighting, I always held my mom and... was there for here. I was told I was so nice, such a lovely boy. So much nicer than your brothers. This really had an impact on me, where I told my mom and dad that I would never be an annoying teenager. I would be sweet all the time.
Thing is, I've kinda kept that promise. Although it made me hold everything I wanted to say and wanted to be inside of me and not let it out. Because, you know, then I would've broke the promise. However, this has really... destroyed me from inside. I feel like I can never show my feelings, my true me. How I really feel and want to be.
My mom continously unloaded her feelings and everything that troubled her on me, the only one that would listen and not say anything. However, I never liked it. I didn't want to hear how bad she felt. How she cried sometimes. It was terrible. However, I never said anything, because then, you know, I wouldn't have been that sweet little boy who always smiled. I did. I smiled. But it wasn't the real smile, although a normal person would've thought it was. I did. But it was the smile of the person I had to create to survive without destroying myself. Which brings me to another point...

I've never felt good at anything. Really. Sports? Nope. Games? Nope. Talking? Nope.
The only thing I really could do well was to make other people laugh. However, this didn't really help at all, since people never had respect for me anyway. I was that nice guy, that short guy who you can make fun of and he will still smile. That cart that just stands there ready to be unloaded on. Yeah, I feel like a freaking cart without cartwheels. Good for unloading your stuff on temporary, but not good enough to actually like. For real.
So, while people have been talking with me and making fun of me I just got angrier and angrier, but I never let it out. I try to let it out now, but I just can't. I can't hit anyone, no matter how hard I try. Everything that hurts "a little" hurts a load on me. I really don't know why, but I hate it. I guess it was because then I wouldn't be a good boy. The nice boy. The only thing I've ever been is the only thing I've never wanted to be. Ironic, isn't it?

And for all this time, I've never had anyone to really show myself to. I guess I still don't have, but that's most likely because I am afraid of myself. All the... feelings I've supressed, locked in inside myself. What would happen if they really came out?
I don't know. But I want to know. But still not.

So, middle school (or whatever you call it, year 7-9) was terrible. I felt used and cheated and hated, but still for some reason... accepted.But still not.

The gymnasium is a little bit better though, with a smaller class and more people that perhaps think a little bit more like you.
This is also the place where I for the first time really fell in love. No, this doesn't just feel like an "attraction", if this isn'treal I don't know what is. The first time I was her my heart jumped twice and I thought "Hey, she's beautiful...". It was like my feelings came crashing. I didn't know what to do. I still don't know what to do. I haven't even talked to her. Yeah, the only girl in our "doubleclass" that I haven't even spoken to is the only girl I've ever thought looked beautiful. There's only one more person that knows who it is, and he tries to... push on me to do something. Say something. But I feel like I just can't. The more I try to take a step forward, I fail and it feels like I take a huge step backwards. I feel... dumb.
Which brings me to another point...

I have since I was around 10 years old been trying to not look cool, not be that guy I feel I hate. I only just recently realized that I have
done my best to not be myself, which may sound terrible. It is. I feel like I don't know myself. I don't know who I really am, because during all these
years I've done my best to not show myself. Not be myself. It's like I forgot that I actually have a real me, somewhere. Everything went like
on routine.

Everything I want to be is the only thing I'm not. Everything I am is the only thing I don't want to be. My selfconfidence is so low I feel like I'm not good for anything. I'm just constantly pissed off when I'm alone. I hate it. I don't want to be like this but I don't know of anything else. Or maybe I do, but I don't feel like I do.

Also, this is almost totally unchecked and there may be spelling errors and such. I don't care.
Okay, I do care. But I don't want to care, so I say I don't care.
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Everything I want to be is the only thing I'm not. Everything I am is the only thing I don't want to be. My selfconfidence is so low I feel like I'm not good for anything. I'm just constantly pissed whenever people cannot see me. I hate it. I don't want to be like this but I don't know of anything else. Or maybe I do, but I don't feel like I do.
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Thank you.

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I'm fairly certain I know how you feel. Of course, I don't really know you.
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Oh, that's not so good. I never wish for anyone to feel like this, all torn... But I don't think it's uncommon.

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Of course, I don't really know you.
No, ofcourse. Which also feels good. This is one place where people don't know me, so I can truly open up without worrying about what people will think.

Though, I'm barely half open. I just don't know how to continue...
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You're right.

Although, if anyone who I know in real life reads this... well... I suppose it's just good. Maybe they will start to understand, but I doubt it considering I don't even understand.

Ah well. The internet is awesome, sometimes.
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Wait, (-), the internet's the only place? I've been doing life all wrong, then...
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So, while people have been talking with me and making fun of me I just got angrier and angrier, but I never let it out. I try to let it out now, but I just can't. I can't hit anyone, no matter how hard I try.
Hitting people doesn't really work anyway. Have you considered sports? You say you're not very good in it, but that doesn't really matter... sporting can be an excellent way to "unload".

I assume you're going to university in a while, as you said you're doing gymnasium right now... try to make a new start there, without the burden of whatever you think about your high school period.
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